So we have decided to send Little Spanish Pinay to daycare. Not for her to learn how to socialize but because she's such an active, happy, eager to learn toddler. My idea of homeschooling her for at least her 3rd yr is unfortunately really hard to do. Honestly? I feel defeated that I simply can't do it all. I've been trying but, the hard truth is? I am not a supermom. But I'm over that. I've come to accept that there can be other people who can share and help her learn new things, explore, discover and just play around with and enjoy things with.
So, with a bit of a heavy heart and a growing knot in my stomach, hubby and I started looking around for a good daycare. We have visited 3 so far and the last one we have visited, has been my favorite. It did seem like it's LSP's favorite too. She liked the place at once, moved around and played with the toys. She talked to the director of the daycare with enthusiasm (she is usually shy at the beginning and wouldn't talk), she ran around the center, went up the slide, slid down her own, squeealed and yelled with excitement.
The daycare has a blog as well where parents can see the activities the kids have been doing. As I was reading the blog and looking at the picture, my stomach started getting knotty again and my throat, lumpy. I'm such a wuss. It's like all of a sudden my baby has become a real full-time grown child - and it feels like this has just happened overnight. I know I've been talking about LSP as a toddler, etc but because technically she's already a toddler ever since she entered 1 - it's just how toddlers are called when they enter one and start toddling. BUT this time? it's like she's really developed her wings and would start to fly away from her nest and will just come back whenever. Ok, it's not whenever, whenever coz she's coming back on schedule but you know what I mean.
She won't start till September coz that's the start of the school year here so I still have about 3 months to enjoy more time in a day with her. I've already asked for a week's vacation on the first week of September so I can also adjust well but it seems like it is going to be a little bit complicated with work. We'll see. Maybe heaven will pity me and make my bosses agree on giving me a week vacation leave. But I am not putting my hopes too high.
I just have too many what-ifs and worries (hello! what's new?). I'm not really used to having her away from me for more than 2 hours in a day. Whenever she feels uncomfortable, mami comes to the rescue with a hug, a kiss and the power of boobies. She has never, ever taken her nap without nursing first. How is she going to take her nap in the daycare?
I know, she's going to adjust and will enjoy her time with other kids playing and learning with her.
Maybe she will adjust better than I would.
Tell me I am over-dramatizing things?